back to the grind

There's a soul crushing element to job searching. Years of ego boosting school and decades of adults blowing smoke up your ass about your 'limitless potential' does a poor job of preparing you for the reality of todays job market. You aren't qualified for a decent job, and can only do menial jobs for so long without devaluing you self worth. I am not exasperated yet, but if I dont find a worthwhile pursuit soon, I'm going Point Break.

HSN and why TV pisses me off...

There are few programs on TV that illicit an emotional response from me. I find it hard to turn away from the 'freak shows' like Hoarders, Intervention, Addicted, all the crazy deformities on TLC (that fucking tumor face fella) but I wouldn't say they make me feel anything. 'Toddlers and Tiaras' and whatever the hell the other little girl pageant show is the most enraging thing I've ever seen. Those dumb, obnoxious mothers are creating little monsters. I'd love to see the mothers physically mauled by badgers, or having their children removed from their care. The christian networks are also sure to piss me off, not just because I don't believe, but because they pray on peoples faith. Goddamn faith water, and holy mats, or prayer books, or worse, the ones who just flat out ask you to send them money. Benny Hinn and the rest of his crew deserve prosecution. The news is a wash because both sides are so biased its hard to take any network at its word. The most depressing thing on, by far, is the home shopping network. Over priced, low quality housewares, jewelry and cosmetics, everything a depressed, bored, ill-informed consumer could want. If you don't shop on them I doubt you've ever watched more than 30 seconds of their programming, mistake. The hosts of these 'shows' are insane!! Its all just marketing babble, they are saying NOTHING! They just talk about a Chinese POS and improvise its 'qualities'. 30 min on gold plated necklaces, or a blender. They sell you on professionalism, and elegance, and cleanliness and technology. Fucking pathetic. It saddens me on such a deep level that so many people are home watching this, and buying in.